~My Words~

im motivating myself to write something positive. but yeah today quite different from the other days. My mood okay. Any irritating situations i can ignore. bcoz im trying to think +ve and to see the bright side of myself. helped by lots of reading about theories and personalities brings back the memories of being a student (those happy days). been looking where gone the happiness in me. read about REBT remind me the first time i presented the theories in front of the class together with Ruhi and … (cant remember). i remembered that i presented the theory wrongly and yeap at that time memang pemalu sangat sangat. been wearing my blue jeans and black shirt and my long lost green jacket (until Mama asked me to wear something Colourful - Mama miss you… hopefully i could go to ur house on Majlis doa selamat Kak Ika. Friends, Kak Ika dah kahwin!)  And also how hard i have tried to ustand about Psychoanalitic (Freud) arrrgghhhh i remembered Ita told me a little by little bout the theory. I remembered when dada and i tried to understand the Constructivist Theory of personality. but now, huh, i am the one who is going to teach my students about all those theories. Budak2 education yang nak tahu tentang kaunseling. Yeap. >>>if wanting to start something or learning something new, perhaps it is hard but later on, we will get use to it. Kat bilik Arfah tu lah selalu lepak brainstorming nak exract points from books yang susah nak paham tu. Later bila i dah pindah bilik, dengan Asmah, Kaylo, Liz and all sama2 study walau sik sama course. To Asmah… I saw those pictures! wow…. happy for u dear Like dada always say >>> Enjoy It! Love ya!

Miss u all my dear Friends. Happy Valentines. To Arfah, Dayda and all whose reading this humble blog of mine.

i juz cant wait for tomorrow. i really really need some sleep and some peace of mind away from this place a lil while. no wonder some people used to say >>> enjoy lok time study >>> yeap i agree. bila dah keja life been sooooo stressful. i am a person who dislikes office gossips. too many females in an  office memang sometimes quite an unpleasant environment. especially bila ada orang suka ambik tahu tentang org lain. ha…. that pompuan in front of me tanya2 lagi my jadual. apa u my supervisor ka? ish… nak klua tu, klua la sendiri jangan tanya2 orang lain. arrrrrggggghhhh…. cant wait til 5 pm!

stress is around me everytime i finish one of the class. i just cannot imagine myself talking infront of 90 people every Tuesday for 3 hours! gila apa. in my head is always i picture myself typing letter of resignation. but at this moment i still can tahan lah. but i donno for how long. some of my friends know my behavior of ‘running’ away of stress. fortunately i’m not the runnaway bride lah. my dad keep motivating me every now and then. he knows that even if i’m not working he still can support me but i have to keep in my mind that someday i have to support my self too. i have to have some resilient in myself. even i do not like here, i take this as a learning experience and a motivation to move myself everyday if i wake up from my bed. >>>>>>>>>>>>>> been thinking of getting a new persian to accompany SnoW.