Arghhh… boring na eh. mun lah dapat pulang tido nak ka best? rindu juak masa time ilek2 d umah. nangga tv dari pagi sampei malam. huhuuhuhhuhu … nak muak molah benda yang sama jak2. dah lah ish susah nak madah. motivation nak keja ya nang down lah. klah chow lok.
29 may 2007…cam bulak tapi bena dah terjadi 
dari aku serba biru
dari deng
lak dah nikah lak baruk nkah gambar tunangku hehehehehe
these are pics were taken when we went shopping at the green gallery to buy some ‘things’ for my special occasion. huhuhuhuhuh thanks dada, azy, mira and also aunty ‘mak nek’ heheheheh (kekadang aunty kekadang makcik) love u all too… without all of you nang sik tauk lah apa nak d polah aku. thanks for all the support
azy n aznisa (i like ur name) or mira @ sri shan …
fuh nyaman ada makanan sia oooo >>>>> jangan azy jangan…(script apen) bridge d idong ya jak nampak putih
@ the green gallery … dayda and azy >>>> look at whats on her head. lil hunny bunny
azy and me … 
untung kau da… rami flower girls. cute2 gik ya …
dayda and me … ngambar dikpun gik ya …
kelak da… when da time comes… we’ll go shop for yrs ya?
** i will always remember this moment. wish u were here fah and asmah… huhuuhhuuhuhuhu…
me and yvette
daddy and irfan
mummy and irfan
Aunty moy
Bee Jay @ Ira
these are some pics of people who i love so much …. to mom and dad… HAPPY TEACHERS DAY
heheheheheh
** i will always love you all no matter what will happen
"Don’t Matter"
Konvict Konvict
Oh
Ohoohwooe
Oooh
Ooohhwooe
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don’t matter no
Cause I got you babe
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don’t matter no
Cause I got you babe
Cause we gon’ fight
Oh yes we gon’ fight
Believe we gon’ fight
We gon’ fight
Fight for our right to love yeah
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don’t matter no
Cause I got you
Nobody wanna see us together
Nobody thought we’d last forever
I feel I’m hopin’ and prayin’
Things between us don’t get better
Men steady comin’ after you
Women steady comin’ after me
Seem like everybody wanna go for self
And don’t wanna respect boundaries
Tellin’ you all those lies
Just to get on your side
But I must admit there was a couple secrets
I held inside
But just know that I tried
To always apologize
And I’ma have you first always in my heart
To keep you satisfied
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don’t matter no
Cause I got you babe
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don’t matter no
Cause I got you babe
Cause we gon’ fight
Oh yes we gon’ fight
Believe we gon’ fight
We gon’ fight
Fight for our right to love yeah
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don’t matter no
Cause I got you
Got every right to wanna leave
Got every right to wanna go
Got every right to hit the road
And never talk to me no more
You don’t even have to call
Even check for me at all
Because the way I been actin’ lately
Has been off the wall
Especially toward you
Puttin’ girls before you
And they watchin’ everything I been doin’
Just to hurt you
Most of it just ain’t you
Ain’t true
And they won’t show you
How much of a queen you are to me
And why I love you baby
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don’t matter no
Cause I got you babe
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don’t matter no
Cause I got you babe
Cause we gon’ fight
Oh yes we gon’ fight
Believe we gon’ fight
We gon’ fight
Fight for our right to love yeah
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don’t matter no
Cause I got you
Oh oh oh oh oh
Cause I got you
Cause I got you
Ooooh
Cause I got you babe
Cause I got you
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don’t matter no
Cause I got you babe
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don’t matter no
Cause I got you babe
Cause we gon’ fight
Oh yes we gon’ fight
Believe we gon’ fight
We gon’ fight
Fight for our right to love yeah
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don’t matter no
Cause I got you
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don’t matter no
Cause I got you babe
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don’t matter no
Cause I got you babe
Cause we gon’ fight
Oh yes we gon’ fight
Believe we gon’ fight
We gon’ fight
Fight for our right to love yeah
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don’t matter no
Cause I got you
ngantok bena aritok. look foward towards public holiday tok. cuba nak plan molah banda nok lamak sik di polah. tapi definately swimming pool nang tutup lah. perhaps molah sikit persediaan untuk ‘masa depan’ ya… namun aritok nang banyak lah berpikir… especially bila i received an unexpected call from that person last night. kenak lah salu camtok? adakah tok cabaran? ntahlah … i pun sik pande nak define it myself. life been always ada ‘what if’ namun sik juak terjadi apa yang seperti the other way…. ( nang berkias lah ) dah lah malas ku nak nulis camtok. perkembangan otak ku berpikir di ganggu miak nok sik paham time tok lunch break lah. macam sik da rehat lah orang sukati nya nak datang jak.
boring bena juak aritok but i’m looking foward for tonight. perhaps will go to watch movie which i planned to watch since beginning of the week. class been okay today. i’m beginning to like this place. the kids were okay with me. but… one thing for sure i’m very tired. project papers are like mountains to be checked. i’m trying to see the bright side in everything. orang kata sik bagus, aku madah bagus. orang sik suka, aku suka… hehehehehhehe… kind of fun though main with reversed psychology. da, ne kau da? sik da lah W2000 this weekend? best ada kau dapat g KK. wanna go too. but gine lah ooo… g lunch dengan kau d ammah pun makan cam nak ngepong bas.
oklah… end for now. 15 mins gik nak klua dari tempat tok. will focussing to my private life yang exiting gitu. tata…
every morning when i drive to work, there must be some particular song that i will play on and on and on., now i’m crazy with this Jay T song. yesterday was a relaxed day for me. went to work as usual, finished my tasks (even not everything done), went out for bfast with my office mate, lunch with toot…. :), after 5pm, i went home happily., drop at the bookstore to pick up my newpaper for the day and lastly when i reach home, i cleared up all the mess my cats made at home. at 9.30pm i went to sleep and today when i woke up, i felt fresh and energized. still…i am listening to that Jay T song And lastly i would like to announce that ….. yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaa aku cuti jumaat tok to ArfahZaini… Saturday (10/3) will be the happiest day of your life. dear, i am happy for you too. at last ya? please tell me all the details ya? i want some pics too…. Love you dear and best wishes from me always and forever.
im motivating myself to write something positive. but yeah today quite different from the other days. My mood okay. Any irritating situations i can ignore. bcoz im trying to think +ve and to see the bright side of myself. helped by lots of reading about theories and personalities brings back the memories of being a student (those happy days). been looking where gone the happiness in me. read about REBT remind me the first time i presented the theories in front of the class together with Ruhi and … (cant remember). i remembered that i presented the theory wrongly and yeap at that time memang pemalu sangat sangat. been wearing my blue jeans and black shirt and my long lost green jacket (until Mama asked me to wear something Colourful - Mama miss you… hopefully i could go to ur house on Majlis doa selamat Kak Ika. Friends, Kak Ika dah kahwin!) And also how hard i have tried to ustand about Psychoanalitic (Freud) arrrgghhhh i remembered Ita told me a little by little bout the theory. I remembered when dada and i tried to understand the Constructivist Theory of personality. but now, huh, i am the one who is going to teach my students about all those theories. Budak2 education yang nak tahu tentang kaunseling. Yeap. >>>if wanting to start something or learning something new, perhaps it is hard but later on, we will get use to it. Kat bilik Arfah tu lah selalu lepak brainstorming nak exract points from books yang susah nak paham tu. Later bila i dah pindah bilik, dengan Asmah, Kaylo, Liz and all sama2 study walau sik sama course. To Asmah… I saw those pictures! wow…. happy for u dear Like dada always say >>> Enjoy It! Love ya!
Miss u all my dear Friends. Happy Valentines. To Arfah, Dayda and all whose reading this humble blog of mine.
i juz cant wait for tomorrow. i really really need some sleep and some peace of mind away from this place a lil while. no wonder some people used to say >>> enjoy lok time study >>> yeap i agree. bila dah keja life been sooooo stressful. i am a person who dislikes office gossips. too many females in an office memang sometimes quite an unpleasant environment. especially bila ada orang suka ambik tahu tentang org lain. ha…. that pompuan in front of me tanya2 lagi my jadual. apa u my supervisor ka? ish… nak klua tu, klua la sendiri jangan tanya2 orang lain. arrrrrggggghhhh…. cant wait til 5 pm!
stress is around me everytime i finish one of the class. i just cannot imagine myself talking infront of 90 people every Tuesday for 3 hours! gila apa. in my head is always i picture myself typing letter of resignation. but at this moment i still can tahan lah. but i donno for how long. some of my friends know my behavior of ‘running’ away of stress. fortunately i’m not the runnaway bride lah. my dad keep motivating me every now and then. he knows that even if i’m not working he still can support me but i have to keep in my mind that someday i have to support my self too. i have to have some resilient in myself. even i do not like here, i take this as a learning experience and a motivation to move myself everyday if i wake up from my bed. >>>>>>>>>>>>>> been thinking of getting a new persian to accompany SnoW.
